no more HIDDING.

HAHAHA!
i guess i no longer have to hide laaaaaaa.

people will soon know anyway.

and we have made it officially!
the first person we directly told was bear!
haha. lucky you! he wants to tell you that we have build our temple!!
haha.
and bear!
the thing on hes neck is a "mole"!
haha.

you know i know aite bear!
sssssssssh!
hes encik tak prasan laaa(:
haha.

i misshym though.
eventhou we talked like every night but i guess i doesnt seems to help.
i just need hym.
like what we said, we are enjoying our honeymoon period!
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
hes just the tall one in my eyes!
anyway baby bookings out on thursday.
he will tman me blajar on friday after i met ms chandran for bio consultation!

hahahahah.
hes just my special special someone!
and i like receiving good night messages from faridz kurniawan cause he never fails to
say
"iloveyou,imissyou,isayangyou,ilikeyou,irynduyou,icintayou!"

no more HIDDING.

no more HIDDING.

my gf is my girlfriend!

my girlfriend is my girlfriend!
thats what baby posted on hes shout out!
awwwwwwwwwwwwwh.
im like back in sch.
will be busy!
sooo yeah,
my boyfriend will understand.
hes like so cute.
and i pamper hym like im the guy.
he totally loves it!

baby!
i miss you!
hahahahahahahahaha.
you still owe me my bites taw.
s.b.b.d bf, i own hym!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
you make me fall in love yet again.
im grateful.

my baby is a pornstar!

i just ike this 'PORNSTAR' of mine!

hahaha.

get a hold of yourself!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

(:

ilikeyou FARIDZ KURNIAWAN!

(: baby jujut!

its 5:21 am.

baby woke up dy!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

we re so far apart but baby says 'we are dekat di hati'

how sweet can he get?

he just make me like hym more!

im like texting baby right now.

teman hym for a while will do the trick to lepaskan my ryndu!

but it doesn't seems to work out!

i just want to hold hym tight in my arms(:

how i wish! tmr would be friday!

baby said something soo sweet yey!

update layta laaa people!

its late and im gettting sleepy! baby must fall in at 530am. the ENCIK'S must get scoldin~
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

see you layta!

im gn teman u!

u promise!(:

FORTUNE TELLER, apic!

hahahahaha.
it sound so lame when you go to the extend of seeking poker cards fortune telling from your friends.
hahahahaha.
naaah. im not really interested, but maybe a try is harmless(:

i shuffle the cards as instructed to by apic.
shuffle the cards according to the persons age, close your eyes and imagine hes face and say hes full name.
it sound soo darn lame.
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i was nervous.
my stomach was full of butterflies flying around in circle!
hahaha.
apic particularly guess and maybe i tinc he knows who im refering to.
haha.
after dividing the cards into 4,3,2
and thats it.
time to reveal.

thers only 4 cards!
the perfect love story.
im like soo soo excited!
happy semacam!
hahaha.
so coincidently baby texted.
he was done for the day, i mean morning training(:

happy!
i seriously miss hym so darn fucking much!

...............................the story continues(:

baby boo??

this person is FARIDZ KURNIAWAN!

he is my lil small one!

he is serving ns now!

nd i'm missing hum soo darn badly!

'baby, sleep alone tonight, with no one here right by your side, sleep alone tonight

i cant forget you.

i know you want me to want you i want to.'

and he sent me thes on friendster((:

• mama s HOT BOY
• Posted 04/18/2009 5:32 pm
• its 5.30 pm
  
  naaaah
  its ok.
  see,i told u we're still gnna be OK!
  u owe me somthing!
  muahahahah
  
  hahaha
  i love my new boxers too
  someone bought for me u know.
  gua suke sama tu pompan.dia banyak baek hati loor[chinese essence]
  
  im gonna meet u today!woots
  imy!

thank you!

the people that make my life better as days goes by(:

these two people were there for me when i was in my most fucking state of mind.

they were there!

no other .

they didn't gave me sympathy but thoughts that really makes me come to my senses.

i guess if not for them i will not be as happy as i am now.

if not for them i wouldn't be able to make my decision.

if not for them i wouldn't know what i should do!

thanks APIC and AIDIL!

i love you both buddy!

and there were also bear and haziq who atleast make an effort to ask.

i love u guys too.

(: nabilah.

that person is away!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

he must be in camp!

hate it.hate it.hate it.but wht to do? i cn do nothing 

but wait till he book out thes friday.

hopefully 'ROTA 4' will be on their best behaviour(:

please do people my dearest babyboo is in ur platoon!

hahahahha.

i sent hym off tdy.opsy i mean yesterday. on sunday,

off to boon lay, back to the basic!

bunk night for 5 days.

its so easy to say goodbye.

but when we hug, its so difficult to let go of my small little one!

people! you may stare at us because we are just to special!

hes the tall one in my eyes!

who cares!

bby, im gna stick it so tightly with super glue when u asked  to permanently remember that 'im our real baby'!

i will no worries!

and im missing you already boo!

wait till u get back and read thes!

4 more days dearest! bear with it(:

i like my baby boo!

i miss my baby boo and 

hes the tall one in my eyes!

loveNABILAH(:

the phrase 'i like you'

when your nerves says that you are liking that someone. dont! dont ever ever spout the words or confess or maybe simply hint them you like them. keep mum! girls to are ego(:

wait for them to actually be the first one to confess it to you. but  in a different situation whereby that someone who is daring enough to confess up to your ex face! right infront  of you! thats totally awesome.

thats when you will give the shocking 'wtf' face while deep inside your two hands are applauding so fast yet quite. awwwwwh.

you feel like 'omg! i rule the world'. after thes then u can take the effort to hint steps by steps.

not to big but cute lil tiny baby steps. (just that cute lil adorable person i like!)thats all needed to hint to that someone 'i like you!' 

this is what happen to me, but i confess back right up to hes face! to tell hym the whole truth! so, somehow kite suka sama suka laaaaaaaaaaa.

(:

its over now, im sorry

living in my shoes is tough.
i guess i owe that someone an apology.

im so sorry, you have to let me go and learn to move on.
its fate that we aren't meant for each other for long.

good things dont last.

u have got to learn from ur past realtionship.
to develop a better one in future.
im always gna be there for you but as a friend or a best friend
thats if you wnt to!

i guess i did the right by putting a stop to this.
although i may seem cruel in a way.
but we cant keep living a lie.

it wont do any good for the both of us.
and your parents too.
i has been months.
i cant continue this fake rlationship anymore to them.
i wouldn't want to fool them.
you have to stop lying to ur parents.
sooner or later u will have to tell them somehow.

u cnt live in deny all your live.
trust me. im not the only girl for you.
thes alot more other girls out there better off than me.
they are gna appreciate and love you more than i used to.
i guess i have to bid goodbye to our love story that ended long ago.
15 november 2008
the date no longer have a meaning but just memories that last.

with love,
nabilah

TRUST?

i guess i have learnt my lesson.
from now on, whtever i know i just keep it within me to playsafe aye.
i dont want to hurt anyone or cause harm to myself.
i guess i've known enough.
whatever people gotta say about me.
just spill it people.
cause at the end of the day, nobody wins!

im only gna trust myself and no other!

things are better left unsaid!
(:
trust me!
you will gain nothing out of it!

are you hinting on me?

haiya.

i really dont understand some people living in this place called earth.

as usual i was on the net.
browsing thru stuff.
and i came across something.
i read it thru.
it was like as if that it has got something to do with me somehow.
but when i read it back it seems impossible.

arghhhhhhhhhhhh!
sometyms.
it takes a thousands miles for you to trusts someone.
eventhough when your guards say soo.
you have got to trust yourself before you trust others.

baaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

morning!
slamat pagi!

hahaha.
i was on the phone with that aidil lolok eralier thes morning.
haha.
talking crap.
talking about our pathetic lives.

it was suppose to be a conference call.
but guess what, that apic SACHOK is off doozing away.

hahahaa.
we share stuffs, joke as usual , talk crap. talk nonsence.
and share our sorrows.
he is a good listener though.
awwwwwwwwwwwh.
thanks aidil(:

while talking.
i was entertining myself with some effing funny videos.
aidil was busy finishing up on hes maths assignment.
i wonder how he can concentrate doing it while talking!
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i guess we really really talk.
we talk plus GOSSIP.
sssssssssssssssssssshh.
its between you and me!
haha.

as the night got older.
aidil was getting more and more irritating.
hahaha.
as usual.

he was singing in
all sorts of tone.
hahaha.
what a nag!
all sorts of song he sang.
haha.
im just being a good friend and was listening to hym.
syiok sendiri.
haha.

anyway, dont worry aidil,
miracles happen.
be patient.
just hope for the best.
haha.
dont give up!

i guess im done!
haha.
alright then.
till later.
see you at pondok.


loves(:

baaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

desperation.

hahahahaha.
im TALL huh?
omg!
what the fcuk.
i sound so corny.
soo bimbo.
hahaha.

look under my eyes!

im like soo sleepy uh.

baaaaaaaaaaaah.

i sucked in life now.
-__-
im like always hanging around.
being pointless in life is seriously very pathetic.
i haf to get past thes as soon as possible.
haf to.
no doubt on that.

ive got no money.
no job.
no boyfriend.
hahaha.
close one eyes on the 'no boyfriend tingy'
hahaha.
but its true bahhh.
haha.

lucky i have made quite a number of friends.
-blahblahblah.

they alteast make my day though.
haha.
spent tym talking crap.
haha.
like watching shinchan on youtube.
its hilarious alright.

some people are born dumb to create that show
but they atleast flaunt their talent
and people enjoy em.
unlike me, talent-less!
-__-

hahaha. i want to make a clan, a shinchan addicts clan.
hahaha.
coolio.
together we laugh our heads out.
watching that stupid'kepale kentang boy'
hahaha.
what the fcuk!
haha.
pathetic.pathetic.pathetic.

loves(:

the piercing is getting irritating uhh!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
fcuk!
the piercing is getting irritating somehow.
macam nak bukak jerr.
fuugg it!
im leading a pathetic life. for goodness sake.
someone get me a job please!
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
im rotting all day a t home!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

pathetic.pathetic.pathetic.

im truly sorry.

i guess for my recent post. not that recent actually.
haha.
im sorry to those who felt offended or what.
he is just a friend. nothing more! so get that straight people!
hhaaha!
im gay! very gay. gay as in HAPPY!
leading a life of craziness!
so people back off if u tinc u can screwed me up.
i donnt gif a damm.
fuggers! faggots!

loves!