my kisses are TRUTH.

awwh. see that picture above. babyboy edit it. haha. how sweet. ilysm!

im back on track. i mean on my blog la. haha. probably im just fugg up with these these thingy. not having the mood to comment ppl, msn and such though. i dont see the need.

hahaha.

yesterday was my 2nd monthsary. i really dont want to comment on that. in short bitter sweet memories on both sides though. present: a scratch on my face! argh! hahahhahaha! not obvious though. so okay la. thanks baby. we have been quarreling much these few days though. argh!

oh god! why? why? why? prosbably, honeymoon period is over! baaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

im soo fugg up with someone. how could you !

please wake up! people grow up to grow old not childish. with all the bullshits you wank about your adidas bag, huh! checked cost:$59.90! oh please. how low can you stood just to gain that sympathy? i dont really know you but that actions you did to my love one, even if you were someone whom people were to look up to, i guess when if they were to discover your childish inner side. i guess the best tinc to do is to spit on your effing face! argh! im soo fugging mad la. i really can accept what had took place. how could you! faggot! fucking fucking fucks!

and because of you, my love one is having soo much problems and because of you too. he has no where to go! all thanks to you! arghh! how i wish i could bite you real hard!

that doesnt even statisy my anger!

haiya. im getting worried for babyb. i tinc he must be feeling fugg up too.

hes the one goin thru this shits.

babyb must stay strong. i gna be there aite dearest!

no worries!

i love you baby!

will forever and always do!

love, girlfriend!

on the rocky rock.

okay.
its been days i didnt update my profile lo.
okay life have been sulking for the last 2 days or 3. i dont want to remember pun. have been on the rocky rocks with boyfriend. baaaaaaaaaaaaaah. we were on the verge of being apart taw.
sialan betol.
but i guess we manage to talk things out. soo lucky. i wouldnt wantt o end our realtionship just because of a simple pathtic talked we had a day before the quarrel. its better to quarrel now then later and then regretting it.
but seriously, i dont twant tolose hym. no intention at all. i guess i said all the things he didnt want to hear because its killing me. thats the only thing that will shut the both of us up.

i updated my NEW diary till 12 pages full. like so gelojo kan! hahaha. tak pe laaaaaaa.
things been better. and

i love hym.
the only things that matter now.

okay people!!
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
i lapar dy.

bf, dont leave me! dont go back on your words and so do i (:

killing me!

boyfriend will be booking out tomorrow!

fugg!
fugg!
fugg!

seriously fugging fugging self!

argh!
what am i suppose to do.
i want to meet hym tomorrow!
im missing hym like mad laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
im not apoloogising.
i dont know where i did wrong.
haiya. nabilah is being ego!
i just thought of giving hym the diary that i have been updating every single day.
but then in this condition, i dont tinc so la.
impossible. the diary that i want to read.
there he can find hes 10 reasons why i love hym soooo.

whats best for you, will be the best for myself.
leaving it all up to fate.
i can no longer take any more failing relationship.
i really want this one to work out.
but a month and its already on the rocks.

ps: boyfriend,
please tell me whats wrong?
no point of you keeping things to yourself.
you promise me that yo wont do thes anymore but you did.
im utterly disappointed and hurt.

yours truly,
girlfriend:nabilah!

i got hung up. got hung up again.

today couldn't get any worser than these.

seriously,afternoon, had a tiff with boyfriend earlier onn. okay. im getting over it.
i just dont want to quarrel. but everything doesn't seems to be going right.
if i were to say its me. i didnt have a bad mood or what fcuk.
im okay from starting of sch till now. now then im having the fcuked up mood.

boyfriend hasn't been himself though. he hung up on me for the second tym today.
omg. is he changing. seriously?
im quetioning myself though. did i make a wrong move again. baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
i thought it through. maybe this is just parts and parcels of being in a relationship.
i knal my boyfriend. he wouldn't do that to me. but then whats wrong with hym today then?
he like dont care about me, then he like malas nak layan me. i dont know la. macam terpakse gytu. darn it uh.
fucking fuck up sia.

i just hate these period. does he know i really really miss hym like mad. we didnt contact each other for the whole of yestersday due to my phone. and now this attitude.

Faridz kurniawan, do you really miss me and love me like what you always says?
im not having doubts on you at all. its just that eversisnce yesterday. you have been acting weird. and just using that alasan, "my friend wants to use the phone" yaa. i understand but hunging up on me the second tym?
thanks though! seriously! u really never spare a thought for my feelings huh?
you said sorry earlier, isit for the sake of saying?
love cant be justified by what comes of our mouth, what matters is deep inside!


iloveyou.
isayangyou.
icintayou.
imissyou.
irynduyou.
iadoreyou.
ilikeyou.
isukeyou.
will always do, farid kurniawan(:

my mobile phone!

my phone is missing.
i mean LOST!
fugg it!
cb!

argh!
no point getting mad.
its not coming back anyway.

ehm, yesterday didnt update. so im updating now. i was rotting at home. my maths paper sucks uh. cb. set the paper soo hard for what. its not the big exam! soo end up i slept halfway thru lo.
i went to smoke smoke after sch. then head straight home.

afternoon came soo fast. i was online then msn-ing with hazli.
he met me up to gave me my stuff. hes going away for 6 months in 2 days tym. (you better take good care of yourself) i broke down after reading the letter he wrote me. i was seriously feeling down. imagine walking alone, reading a letter and tears just rolled down my cheeks automatically. im sorry but like i said good things dont last and maybe you deserve a much better girl than me. im just not good enough. and not worth of your love.

went home straight. as usual watch my chinese drama. then bf text. haha. i didnt text hym like the whole day. omg! sorry baby. i was really fugg up. alsot of things happen. at last i told you about it on the phone. baby are getting all gear up to book out. hes like have thousands of plans on hes head. and bf will be buying me t-shirt!

i cant wear sleeveless anymore,low cut top and whatever that is revealing.
"try uh" thats what boyfriend will say.

hahahahahhahaha. how cute kan? and he seriously is buying me cover up tops.
he just dont want anyone to take a peep at me. haha. i've got no big big bossoms or pantat to look at actually! hahaha.
but i feel so loved when he care soo much. awwwh. one of the reason i love you.

sayang jujut!

(:

my mobile phone!

i lost my hp!

what the fcuk.
darn!
okay, fugg it!

BF in camp.

as usual.
to hes place. teman hym at home for a while.
seen hym off. then head back home.

thats my routine. and its not the usual mundane routine alright.

baby is sooo eager to book out this friday.
lots of plans on hes head.
and i dont know if im fetching hym on friday.
he got picnic.

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

but our plans on saturday is gna be soo soo alot.
baby wants to shop.
do these and that.
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
and our the other plan. we find it a waste of money actually!
haha. soo we are agreeable if we abort the plan(:

maybe cinema on saturday.
idk.
wait till bby is back.

now, life been great esp with my bf by my side.
things are going quite well.
except for some others,
sorry people but im already someones.
maybe the greeting gotta go.
its for the sake for my relationship.
maybe we used to contact last tym.
and if i made you fall for me,
im sorry.

to anonymous one,
you shouldnt haf said that to my bf
"nabilah pass aku uh".
u take me s a what??
jahat jahat jahat!

to anonymous two,
we may be close.
i maybe giving you hope.
but you have got to adapt and atleast not ber-kepit with me like usual.
and trying to kiss me when my bf is just beside me?
what has got over you?

to anonymous three,
i know that you are very shock when i told you im attached.
but even so, thanks for not throwing tantrums.
and sorry that i cant layan u like i used to.
(:
but you stil my fat cute buddy!

to anonymous four,
you are very different now.
i know that you fall for me,
but i guess its too late.
im own.
but that doesn't mean you have to be soo sarcastic kan.
up to you.
but i still regard u as my friend.

to anonymous five,
you are my long long long tym ex.
remember this.
dont try to do your very best to keep getting close to me.
know what you can do to me and what you cant do.
im jujut's.
sorry but i no longer love you, belalang!
he maybe shorter, but hes a better choice!

sorry but the other anonymous, will update soon!

gtg!
got chinese drama to catch!