my kisses are TRUTH.

awwh. see that picture above. babyboy edit it. haha. how sweet. ilysm!

im back on track. i mean on my blog la. haha. probably im just fugg up with these these thingy. not having the mood to comment ppl, msn and such though. i dont see the need.

hahaha.

yesterday was my 2nd monthsary. i really dont want to comment on that. in short bitter sweet memories on both sides though. present: a scratch on my face! argh! hahahhahaha! not obvious though. so okay la. thanks baby. we have been quarreling much these few days though. argh!

oh god! why? why? why? prosbably, honeymoon period is over! baaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

im soo fugg up with someone. how could you !

please wake up! people grow up to grow old not childish. with all the bullshits you wank about your adidas bag, huh! checked cost:$59.90! oh please. how low can you stood just to gain that sympathy? i dont really know you but that actions you did to my love one, even if you were someone whom people were to look up to, i guess when if they were to discover your childish inner side. i guess the best tinc to do is to spit on your effing face! argh! im soo fugging mad la. i really can accept what had took place. how could you! faggot! fucking fucking fucks!

and because of you, my love one is having soo much problems and because of you too. he has no where to go! all thanks to you! arghh! how i wish i could bite you real hard!

that doesnt even statisy my anger!

haiya. im getting worried for babyb. i tinc he must be feeling fugg up too.

hes the one goin thru this shits.

babyb must stay strong. i gna be there aite dearest!

no worries!

i love you baby!

will forever and always do!

love, girlfriend!

on the rocky rock.

okay.
its been days i didnt update my profile lo.
okay life have been sulking for the last 2 days or 3. i dont want to remember pun. have been on the rocky rocks with boyfriend. baaaaaaaaaaaaaah. we were on the verge of being apart taw.
sialan betol.
but i guess we manage to talk things out. soo lucky. i wouldnt wantt o end our realtionship just because of a simple pathtic talked we had a day before the quarrel. its better to quarrel now then later and then regretting it.
but seriously, i dont twant tolose hym. no intention at all. i guess i said all the things he didnt want to hear because its killing me. thats the only thing that will shut the both of us up.

i updated my NEW diary till 12 pages full. like so gelojo kan! hahaha. tak pe laaaaaaa.
things been better. and

i love hym.
the only things that matter now.

okay people!!
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
i lapar dy.

bf, dont leave me! dont go back on your words and so do i (:

killing me!

boyfriend will be booking out tomorrow!

fugg!
fugg!
fugg!

seriously fugging fugging self!

argh!
what am i suppose to do.
i want to meet hym tomorrow!
im missing hym like mad laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
im not apoloogising.
i dont know where i did wrong.
haiya. nabilah is being ego!
i just thought of giving hym the diary that i have been updating every single day.
but then in this condition, i dont tinc so la.
impossible. the diary that i want to read.
there he can find hes 10 reasons why i love hym soooo.

whats best for you, will be the best for myself.
leaving it all up to fate.
i can no longer take any more failing relationship.
i really want this one to work out.
but a month and its already on the rocks.

ps: boyfriend,
please tell me whats wrong?
no point of you keeping things to yourself.
you promise me that yo wont do thes anymore but you did.
im utterly disappointed and hurt.

yours truly,
girlfriend:nabilah!

i got hung up. got hung up again.

today couldn't get any worser than these.

seriously,afternoon, had a tiff with boyfriend earlier onn. okay. im getting over it.
i just dont want to quarrel. but everything doesn't seems to be going right.
if i were to say its me. i didnt have a bad mood or what fcuk.
im okay from starting of sch till now. now then im having the fcuked up mood.

boyfriend hasn't been himself though. he hung up on me for the second tym today.
omg. is he changing. seriously?
im quetioning myself though. did i make a wrong move again. baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
i thought it through. maybe this is just parts and parcels of being in a relationship.
i knal my boyfriend. he wouldn't do that to me. but then whats wrong with hym today then?
he like dont care about me, then he like malas nak layan me. i dont know la. macam terpakse gytu. darn it uh.
fucking fuck up sia.

i just hate these period. does he know i really really miss hym like mad. we didnt contact each other for the whole of yestersday due to my phone. and now this attitude.

Faridz kurniawan, do you really miss me and love me like what you always says?
im not having doubts on you at all. its just that eversisnce yesterday. you have been acting weird. and just using that alasan, "my friend wants to use the phone" yaa. i understand but hunging up on me the second tym?
thanks though! seriously! u really never spare a thought for my feelings huh?
you said sorry earlier, isit for the sake of saying?
love cant be justified by what comes of our mouth, what matters is deep inside!


iloveyou.
isayangyou.
icintayou.
imissyou.
irynduyou.
iadoreyou.
ilikeyou.
isukeyou.
will always do, farid kurniawan(:

my mobile phone!

my phone is missing.
i mean LOST!
fugg it!
cb!

argh!
no point getting mad.
its not coming back anyway.

ehm, yesterday didnt update. so im updating now. i was rotting at home. my maths paper sucks uh. cb. set the paper soo hard for what. its not the big exam! soo end up i slept halfway thru lo.
i went to smoke smoke after sch. then head straight home.

afternoon came soo fast. i was online then msn-ing with hazli.
he met me up to gave me my stuff. hes going away for 6 months in 2 days tym. (you better take good care of yourself) i broke down after reading the letter he wrote me. i was seriously feeling down. imagine walking alone, reading a letter and tears just rolled down my cheeks automatically. im sorry but like i said good things dont last and maybe you deserve a much better girl than me. im just not good enough. and not worth of your love.

went home straight. as usual watch my chinese drama. then bf text. haha. i didnt text hym like the whole day. omg! sorry baby. i was really fugg up. alsot of things happen. at last i told you about it on the phone. baby are getting all gear up to book out. hes like have thousands of plans on hes head. and bf will be buying me t-shirt!

i cant wear sleeveless anymore,low cut top and whatever that is revealing.
"try uh" thats what boyfriend will say.

hahahahahhahaha. how cute kan? and he seriously is buying me cover up tops.
he just dont want anyone to take a peep at me. haha. i've got no big big bossoms or pantat to look at actually! hahaha.
but i feel so loved when he care soo much. awwwh. one of the reason i love you.

sayang jujut!

(:

my mobile phone!

i lost my hp!

what the fcuk.
darn!
okay, fugg it!

BF in camp.

as usual.
to hes place. teman hym at home for a while.
seen hym off. then head back home.

thats my routine. and its not the usual mundane routine alright.

baby is sooo eager to book out this friday.
lots of plans on hes head.
and i dont know if im fetching hym on friday.
he got picnic.

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

but our plans on saturday is gna be soo soo alot.
baby wants to shop.
do these and that.
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
and our the other plan. we find it a waste of money actually!
haha. soo we are agreeable if we abort the plan(:

maybe cinema on saturday.
idk.
wait till bby is back.

now, life been great esp with my bf by my side.
things are going quite well.
except for some others,
sorry people but im already someones.
maybe the greeting gotta go.
its for the sake for my relationship.
maybe we used to contact last tym.
and if i made you fall for me,
im sorry.

to anonymous one,
you shouldnt haf said that to my bf
"nabilah pass aku uh".
u take me s a what??
jahat jahat jahat!

to anonymous two,
we may be close.
i maybe giving you hope.
but you have got to adapt and atleast not ber-kepit with me like usual.
and trying to kiss me when my bf is just beside me?
what has got over you?

to anonymous three,
i know that you are very shock when i told you im attached.
but even so, thanks for not throwing tantrums.
and sorry that i cant layan u like i used to.
(:
but you stil my fat cute buddy!

to anonymous four,
you are very different now.
i know that you fall for me,
but i guess its too late.
im own.
but that doesn't mean you have to be soo sarcastic kan.
up to you.
but i still regard u as my friend.

to anonymous five,
you are my long long long tym ex.
remember this.
dont try to do your very best to keep getting close to me.
know what you can do to me and what you cant do.
im jujut's.
sorry but i no longer love you, belalang!
he maybe shorter, but hes a better choice!

sorry but the other anonymous, will update soon!

gtg!
got chinese drama to catch!

at boyfriend's.

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
im at boyfriend's place.
update my blog uh since he is bathing.
masam!

hes getting darker!
haha.
we have the same tone now dearest(:
boooooooooo!

i fetch bf at redhill.
was lepak-ing with dee-din tady.
got soo much to talk about actually.
haha.
but he has training takraw as usual and i've got to meet bf.
dee-din, girls come by easy but first love is hard to forget.
learn how to let go.
i can have that mickey then since you want to give it to me(:
yeahyeah. will have a new teddy to hug!

hahahahaha.
will talk about your "girlfriend" soon aite.

okay people, bf is nagging!
haha.
gtg!

love,
nabilah(:

my fugging life!

haha. i have a boyfriend.
yes, i do.
andi adore hym.
he brighten up my life.

i want to clearly state that if anyone has a problem with me.
or you are just not happy the way i am.
say it right infront, right up to my face!

seriously!
i prefer it this way!
and you dont have to treat me nice if you dont like me.
dont beat about the bush.
im sure you dont want people to treat you people that way kan?
i finaly realise that some people has been talking about me when i came across a blog of someone.
thanks though.

please peole!!
make my life a better one.
i want to live my life as other people would.

hypocrites all around!

seriusly, theres no such person that will admit he/she is a hypocrite.
seriously.!
for the fact that this earth is full of people called friends.
but though the are label as friends.
no doubt that the are not gna gossip.

there's this word called "judge"!
but this is open to all.
but i guess no one is in a position to judge anyone.
if you got one to spout, say it infronnt up straight to the face.
dont have to beat about the bush.
its fcuking frustating.
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
i wonder why friends are bound to do this shiats.

they will always say, you have my shoulder to cry on, im gna be there for you always.
i guess its up to the own individuals.
probably i've got my oneself to trust.

its just soo pathetic that words will go around even if im not at fault.
its just a nature of a person!

2 hours away!

2hours more bby dear!
yeahyeahh!

haha.

i just got back from bp!
bukit panjang uh!

haha.
i ryndu pondok people.
i went to meet yayi tady.
he was like nagging uh.

haha.
i need to call boyfriend now.
tata(:

love these honeymoon period!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah,
today i was late for sch la.
babiak nyer prangai.
i have to change my sleeping patern though.

hiakhiakdishdish!

i simply cant open my eyes!
darn it!
da lambat, i still can like stroll to the mrt like i own the sch.
nabilah....nabilah....

i somehow love my dnt paper tadi.
it was fun!
and also my combined science prac!
gereknye..
everything seems to be going on fine with an exception that my bf is away.
im getting used to the 5 days without hym routine.
with sch keeping me very busy.
maybe that kills tym very fast.

tmr will be my monthsary with boyfriend.
both of us are getting excited.
haha.
to meet each other on friday.
spent tym at bedok eat kacang.
then the next week cuddly time!
haha.
the long wait as paid off!
hopefully!!!


p:s i met hes family dy!
haha. how cute.
i thought of getting a sidewalk t-shirt for the both of us but im short of it now!!!
money problem uhhh!!
naah. actually can buy that anytime.
its the thoughts that come.

imissboyfriend!


love my boyfriend!

this is my boyfriend!

nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!
nabilah's!

pacarku!

SITI NABILAH BINTE SAJALE ,
LOVES
SAYANG
SUKE
LIKE
RYNDU
MISS
CINTA
FARIDZ KURNIAWAN!

we like quarrel?

aiiyaa.
we quarrel for the 1st tym.
i guess he got angry for the second!
haha.
yesterday i was at fault laaaa.
how unreasonable can i get?
nabilah, nabilah................

lucky baby loves me soo much.
haha.
if not, im gna be miserable.
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

it all started with this girl!
hello!
can you see he wrote
NABILAH'S!
on hes fs profile and im hes only featured friend there!
wakee up!
dont go cheapening yourself with my boyfriend.
he wont fall for you, big time for that!

and the other was because of this guy who tried to kiss me right before my bf.
how naive can you get?
please understand, im own by jujut now.
he totally is angry with you for that, like TOTALLY!
he is really pissed. and a second thought you are hes friend!
god!
you better dont ever tried to do that again.
and for that we had a tiff okay!

baby,
reminder for you!
2 DAYS MORE!
7april2009!

baby!

no more HIDDING.

HAHAHA!
i guess i no longer have to hide laaaaaaa.

people will soon know anyway.

and we have made it officially!
the first person we directly told was bear!
haha. lucky you! he wants to tell you that we have build our temple!!
haha.
and bear!
the thing on hes neck is a "mole"!
haha.

you know i know aite bear!
sssssssssh!
hes encik tak prasan laaa(:
haha.

i misshym though.
eventhou we talked like every night but i guess i doesnt seems to help.
i just need hym.
like what we said, we are enjoying our honeymoon period!
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
hes just the tall one in my eyes!
anyway baby bookings out on thursday.
he will tman me blajar on friday after i met ms chandran for bio consultation!

hahahahah.
hes just my special special someone!
and i like receiving good night messages from faridz kurniawan cause he never fails to
say
"iloveyou,imissyou,isayangyou,ilikeyou,irynduyou,icintayou!"

no more HIDDING.

no more HIDDING.

my gf is my girlfriend!

my girlfriend is my girlfriend!
thats what baby posted on hes shout out!
awwwwwwwwwwwwwh.
im like back in sch.
will be busy!
sooo yeah,
my boyfriend will understand.
hes like so cute.
and i pamper hym like im the guy.
he totally loves it!

baby!
i miss you!
hahahahahahahahaha.
you still owe me my bites taw.
s.b.b.d bf, i own hym!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
you make me fall in love yet again.
im grateful.

my baby is a pornstar!

i just ike this 'PORNSTAR' of mine!

hahaha.

get a hold of yourself!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

(:

ilikeyou FARIDZ KURNIAWAN!

(: baby jujut!

its 5:21 am.

baby woke up dy!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

we re so far apart but baby says 'we are dekat di hati'

how sweet can he get?

he just make me like hym more!

im like texting baby right now.

teman hym for a while will do the trick to lepaskan my ryndu!

but it doesn't seems to work out!

i just want to hold hym tight in my arms(:

how i wish! tmr would be friday!

baby said something soo sweet yey!

update layta laaa people!

its late and im gettting sleepy! baby must fall in at 530am. the ENCIK'S must get scoldin~
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

see you layta!

im gn teman u!

u promise!(:

FORTUNE TELLER, apic!

hahahahaha.
it sound so lame when you go to the extend of seeking poker cards fortune telling from your friends.
hahahahaha.
naaah. im not really interested, but maybe a try is harmless(:

i shuffle the cards as instructed to by apic.
shuffle the cards according to the persons age, close your eyes and imagine hes face and say hes full name.
it sound soo darn lame.
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i was nervous.
my stomach was full of butterflies flying around in circle!
hahaha.
apic particularly guess and maybe i tinc he knows who im refering to.
haha.
after dividing the cards into 4,3,2
and thats it.
time to reveal.

thers only 4 cards!
the perfect love story.
im like soo soo excited!
happy semacam!
hahaha.
so coincidently baby texted.
he was done for the day, i mean morning training(:

happy!
i seriously miss hym so darn fucking much!

...............................the story continues(:

baby boo??

this person is FARIDZ KURNIAWAN!

he is my lil small one!

he is serving ns now!

nd i'm missing hum soo darn badly!

'baby, sleep alone tonight, with no one here right by your side, sleep alone tonight

i cant forget you.

i know you want me to want you i want to.'

and he sent me thes on friendster((:

• mama s HOT BOY
• Posted 04/18/2009 5:32 pm
• its 5.30 pm
  
  naaaah
  its ok.
  see,i told u we're still gnna be OK!
  u owe me somthing!
  muahahahah
  
  hahaha
  i love my new boxers too
  someone bought for me u know.
  gua suke sama tu pompan.dia banyak baek hati loor[chinese essence]
  
  im gonna meet u today!woots
  imy!

thank you!

the people that make my life better as days goes by(:

these two people were there for me when i was in my most fucking state of mind.

they were there!

no other .

they didn't gave me sympathy but thoughts that really makes me come to my senses.

i guess if not for them i will not be as happy as i am now.

if not for them i wouldn't be able to make my decision.

if not for them i wouldn't know what i should do!

thanks APIC and AIDIL!

i love you both buddy!

and there were also bear and haziq who atleast make an effort to ask.

i love u guys too.

(: nabilah.

that person is away!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

he must be in camp!

hate it.hate it.hate it.but wht to do? i cn do nothing 

but wait till he book out thes friday.

hopefully 'ROTA 4' will be on their best behaviour(:

please do people my dearest babyboo is in ur platoon!

hahahahha.

i sent hym off tdy.opsy i mean yesterday. on sunday,

off to boon lay, back to the basic!

bunk night for 5 days.

its so easy to say goodbye.

but when we hug, its so difficult to let go of my small little one!

people! you may stare at us because we are just to special!

hes the tall one in my eyes!

who cares!

bby, im gna stick it so tightly with super glue when u asked  to permanently remember that 'im our real baby'!

i will no worries!

and im missing you already boo!

wait till u get back and read thes!

4 more days dearest! bear with it(:

i like my baby boo!

i miss my baby boo and 

hes the tall one in my eyes!

loveNABILAH(:

the phrase 'i like you'

when your nerves says that you are liking that someone. dont! dont ever ever spout the words or confess or maybe simply hint them you like them. keep mum! girls to are ego(:

wait for them to actually be the first one to confess it to you. but  in a different situation whereby that someone who is daring enough to confess up to your ex face! right infront  of you! thats totally awesome.

thats when you will give the shocking 'wtf' face while deep inside your two hands are applauding so fast yet quite. awwwwwh.

you feel like 'omg! i rule the world'. after thes then u can take the effort to hint steps by steps.

not to big but cute lil tiny baby steps. (just that cute lil adorable person i like!)thats all needed to hint to that someone 'i like you!' 

this is what happen to me, but i confess back right up to hes face! to tell hym the whole truth! so, somehow kite suka sama suka laaaaaaaaaaa.

(:

its over now, im sorry

living in my shoes is tough.
i guess i owe that someone an apology.

im so sorry, you have to let me go and learn to move on.
its fate that we aren't meant for each other for long.

good things dont last.

u have got to learn from ur past realtionship.
to develop a better one in future.
im always gna be there for you but as a friend or a best friend
thats if you wnt to!

i guess i did the right by putting a stop to this.
although i may seem cruel in a way.
but we cant keep living a lie.

it wont do any good for the both of us.
and your parents too.
i has been months.
i cant continue this fake rlationship anymore to them.
i wouldn't want to fool them.
you have to stop lying to ur parents.
sooner or later u will have to tell them somehow.

u cnt live in deny all your live.
trust me. im not the only girl for you.
thes alot more other girls out there better off than me.
they are gna appreciate and love you more than i used to.
i guess i have to bid goodbye to our love story that ended long ago.
15 november 2008
the date no longer have a meaning but just memories that last.

with love,
nabilah

TRUST?

i guess i have learnt my lesson.
from now on, whtever i know i just keep it within me to playsafe aye.
i dont want to hurt anyone or cause harm to myself.
i guess i've known enough.
whatever people gotta say about me.
just spill it people.
cause at the end of the day, nobody wins!

im only gna trust myself and no other!

things are better left unsaid!
(:
trust me!
you will gain nothing out of it!

are you hinting on me?

haiya.

i really dont understand some people living in this place called earth.

as usual i was on the net.
browsing thru stuff.
and i came across something.
i read it thru.
it was like as if that it has got something to do with me somehow.
but when i read it back it seems impossible.

arghhhhhhhhhhhh!
sometyms.
it takes a thousands miles for you to trusts someone.
eventhough when your guards say soo.
you have got to trust yourself before you trust others.

baaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

morning!
slamat pagi!

hahaha.
i was on the phone with that aidil lolok eralier thes morning.
haha.
talking crap.
talking about our pathetic lives.

it was suppose to be a conference call.
but guess what, that apic SACHOK is off doozing away.

hahahaa.
we share stuffs, joke as usual , talk crap. talk nonsence.
and share our sorrows.
he is a good listener though.
awwwwwwwwwwwh.
thanks aidil(:

while talking.
i was entertining myself with some effing funny videos.
aidil was busy finishing up on hes maths assignment.
i wonder how he can concentrate doing it while talking!
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i guess we really really talk.
we talk plus GOSSIP.
sssssssssssssssssssshh.
its between you and me!
haha.

as the night got older.
aidil was getting more and more irritating.
hahaha.
as usual.

he was singing in
all sorts of tone.
hahaha.
what a nag!
all sorts of song he sang.
haha.
im just being a good friend and was listening to hym.
syiok sendiri.
haha.

anyway, dont worry aidil,
miracles happen.
be patient.
just hope for the best.
haha.
dont give up!

i guess im done!
haha.
alright then.
till later.
see you at pondok.


loves(:

baaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

desperation.

hahahahaha.
im TALL huh?
omg!
what the fcuk.
i sound so corny.
soo bimbo.
hahaha.

look under my eyes!

im like soo sleepy uh.

baaaaaaaaaaaah.

i sucked in life now.
-__-
im like always hanging around.
being pointless in life is seriously very pathetic.
i haf to get past thes as soon as possible.
haf to.
no doubt on that.

ive got no money.
no job.
no boyfriend.
hahaha.
close one eyes on the 'no boyfriend tingy'
hahaha.
but its true bahhh.
haha.

lucky i have made quite a number of friends.
-blahblahblah.

they alteast make my day though.
haha.
spent tym talking crap.
haha.
like watching shinchan on youtube.
its hilarious alright.

some people are born dumb to create that show
but they atleast flaunt their talent
and people enjoy em.
unlike me, talent-less!
-__-

hahaha. i want to make a clan, a shinchan addicts clan.
hahaha.
coolio.
together we laugh our heads out.
watching that stupid'kepale kentang boy'
hahaha.
what the fcuk!
haha.
pathetic.pathetic.pathetic.

loves(:

the piercing is getting irritating uhh!

baaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
fcuk!
the piercing is getting irritating somehow.
macam nak bukak jerr.
fuugg it!
im leading a pathetic life. for goodness sake.
someone get me a job please!
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
im rotting all day a t home!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

pathetic.pathetic.pathetic.

im truly sorry.

i guess for my recent post. not that recent actually.
haha.
im sorry to those who felt offended or what.
he is just a friend. nothing more! so get that straight people!
hhaaha!
im gay! very gay. gay as in HAPPY!
leading a life of craziness!
so people back off if u tinc u can screwed me up.
i donnt gif a damm.
fuggers! faggots!

loves!

HES BACKK!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

fuggin happy uh.

he topup once he got my msg taw!

daddy, mummy miss u much.really do lorh.

hahaahhaahhh!

daddy kat kl naughty eyy?

drinkdrinkdrink!

ephh.

he calls me B once again that cheer me up:)

u make yday dearest!

hes my lovable friend.

my mr MASAMBOY!

:)

long long ago.....

<3>

walkin away.

its been soo long!
since i last saw you.
i miss your MOST irritating voice.
i miss your hugs.
and .....................................................

i guess u are not back yet.
or u haf choose to walk away.
i dont know.

the promises u make that we will always be contactable.
i guess that promise had been broken by you.

our 1stmonth friendship anni is just around the corner.
i guess u didnt take not of it.
but i will always do.
as u were once my birthday present :)

loves.

masam's cousin:)

hahhahahahahha.
kecohh.
chatted with herr onn frensta. [munkyMICKS dearest!]
hahahaha.
she hutang me one mcspicy.
i hutang her one burger ramly.
hahahahahahaha
alamakkk.
will update again laytaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa:)
ngantok uhhhh.
hahahaha")

loves.

to that someone:)

"Insomnia"

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love

But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush

Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up

When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I knowDidn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time, you'll change your mind

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no moreOh i stay up til you're next to me

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love

You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust

And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us

But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)

Feels like insomnia ah ah,

Feels like insomnia ah ahFeels like insomnia ah ah (Ah),

Feels like insomnia ah ahAh,

i just can't go to sleepCause it feels like I've fallen for you

It's getting way too deep

And i know that it's love becauseI can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

not tha same.

haiyaaaaaaaaaa!

i really miss masam!

hahahahahaha!

i mean he irritates me no more.

hahahahhahaha!

ehmm. my ex kena confinement for a week. aiyaa. ksiann hym much. but thers nothing much i can do to help. im sorry.

but i too haf my burdens.

i guess im living in deny.

i dont know what i want now in life.

im like soooo LOST in my own fantasy world.

cant i live a life like anyone else.?

things look easy but they are not if we were to look on the realistic side.

everything that im going thru right now seems so real but somehow it seems so fake.

wtf!

cant i write my own story board out?

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

now im starting to hate school. but i dont know why.

trying sooo much to love it.

school rules and all shits are getting on my nerves!

dammit!

what a fuggin life im leadin right now.

i use to haf someone, whom i can confide to.

but now hes gone.

how i really wish he was there again.

he was the one who woke me up from all my wrongdoings.

he knocked sense into me.

but where is he went i needed hym the most?

hes far away.

all your msges when u first said all the things that really made my day is kept safely inside my phone.

the song: insomnia

the first verse of the lyrics i guess make sense!

"never thought i'll fall in love, love, love

but it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush......................."

i guess good things dont last.

every that happen, happen for its own reason.

loves:)

got em:)

<--------i like thes green hoodyy!! darnn!!

<-------- i know he looks tall in thes pcture ONLY!

<-------- nabilah and apicc "LOLOK"!!

yeahhyeahhh!

i got the picturess!! hahahahah! tapy skit seyy!! hahahaah!

takpelaaaaaaa. im onlinee! but im stl soo bored!!

arggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!

loves:)

IMYLOTSS! :)

LOL!

i really got nothing to do!

arghhhh!!

i cant do my homework.

takde mood!! darn:)

look at me-------------------->

UGLY! i tauuu:)

yeahhyeahhh.baby!

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

yeahhyeahhhh!! i got it!

hahahahahahahahahha!!

im born a GENIUS!

hahahaha!

okayy peoplee!

nabilahh da pandai:)

hahaha!

and im soo penat.

malas uhh nak g sch besok.

can i PONTENG?

loves:)

reviving everything!!

hahahahahahahah!

what a day:)

ehmm. been reviving all the things in life.

somehow i got to do so!

hahahahaha!

starting a new i guess.

ehmm. but fuugging shit. i cant put that fff-ing song onto my blogg!!

WHYYYY!!!

godd dammit!

my friendster!

my blog!

my msn!

hhahahahahh!!

loves:)

PATHETIC DAY!

hahahahahahha:)

as AIDIL "LOLOK" said earlier onn, today is a PATHETIC day. cant deny that actually ,very well it is! haha. went out to visit my graddys. its been a while. then head to town with roi, apic, haziq and aidil. play pool. jalann jalann. clock ticking away, head back to pondok. lapak with roi.
then clock struck 1opm. bid goodbye to roi.went stright back home with aidil, hes brother and haziq.

as a matter of fact, i miss my MR MASAM BOY muchh. its ben a day. try to contact but to no avail. wonder what is he doing right now? is he in kuala lumpur already? ehmm, hope you are safe and sound dearest:)

earlier onn,aidil told me that my ex text hes ex yesterday night, ehm i thought he was in johorby then. ehm i dont tinc i should be poking my nose in someone elses life. i dont have the right to do so anyway. why should i ryte? its hes choice. if he tincs he wants to play me out and play these pathetic lil game. be my guest. im gna play onn.

arghhhh!! im likeee feeling soooooooo DUMB! i dont know what i want in lyfe now. im soo unsure of myself. i guess i wanna rest for a while and let me enjoy the SINGLEHOOD breeze. hahaha!

loves:)

TIRED!

arghhhhhhh...
darn. im soo fff-ing tired! dammmit. all that clubbin is getting of my back dy. march hols was kinda pathetic to me. it doesnt seem like a holiday at all. 2 more days till school starts. and my homework are pilling up. ive not been doing it! dam.!

OMG! tday is the 21st march! hes goin off to kl. do take care aitt. behave yourself like you always do. miss yaw alot actually. its been so long since we chatted on the phone. the irritating voice of yours will always be remembered :)

arghhhhhhhh!!
actually i just woke up. hahaha. just to get started with my assignment. hahahaha. the maths paper are calling my name! and IM NOT GOING OUT TODAY! (moms gna be so pleased)

loves:)

to whom it may concern

dearest,
i guess thes should be posted long tym ago. but i havent got the courage to do so.
ive been keeping thes too long. and i just got to let it out my chest. haiyaa. life is so unpredictable. in a blink of an eye, i realised i was on the verge of falling in love but somehw there is something helding me back.mayb u are to good for me. but you never admit to it.

u walk into my life on the 28 of febrary 2009, my birthday! as iour friendship grows, i never get bored talking to you every single day for the past weeks. i wonder if you too feel the same? having you there accompanying me thru the days was a pleasure. i really appreciate it much.

the bond betweeen us were really cute. it started out with mummy and daddy! its just soo kecoh! haha. but something that made me weak on my knees was when u uttered the word "ily". it felt so real.

we agreed to take things slow and just continue on with our kecoh friendship. and u said we were DATING. it went o for a week or two. but something happen and suddenly i feel that there is a gap between us. im no longer comfortable since then. it were on the night dated 14 of march when everthing took a change.

ehmmmmm. i guess i cant go onn anymore let me just keep it short that imissyaaaaaaa!

its different now.

dearest,
perhaps u haf got to face it that things have changed. its no longer the same. as i said, im not gna leave u to fend for yourself. im gna be there as a bestfriend, close friend , friend. but at the moment not as a girlfriend. im just not that ready to make my decisions yet. i dont wna rush things out. let just take it slow. slow and steady. all these can wait. the real reason behind this waitis just as simple as, i dont wna live in deny. and dont wna give you false hope. the love is still there for sure. its not gna fade that easy. after all we haf gne thru. lets just go with the flow and treasur ethe moments we have together right noww :)